Our New Journey...Has Just begun!

I am now homeschooling Cheyton, my oldest son.  I am enjoying it so far, and look forward to continuing on for the next few years...at least!! For the first 90 days, we have to homeschool on our own at home.  It is somewhat like a probation period, to make sure that he can handle mom being the teacher and vise versa.  In our case, since the 90 days will put us so close to the end of the school year, we will be working at home the rest of the school year.

In September, he gets to go to a school, for homeschoolers, twice a week and be a home three days a week.  I love the idea.  He still gets socialization and friends, he has administration to hold him accountable, teachers that are credentialed...I feel capable and willing to teach him, however I am blessed that they have this program available.  We are involved in choosing his classes, working with him at home and the school has less than 300 students total. 

He will still have an opportunity to play sports in both middle school and high school.  They have them offered at the school for middle, and he can play for the public high school.  He's VERY excited about this!  :)  I  know that there are challenges in everything, and we are sure to have our adjustments here and there.  If Cheyton stays on track, after 10th grade, he may have an opportunity to start at the community college and when he graduates high school, he ill also graduate with an associates degree. 

Healing...We Need It!

I watched the video above this morning and it was really what I needed to hear.  Obviously you all know about my health issues, and the depression...But now we are dealing with bullying issues with my son Cheyton.  We do not have the school backing us up at this point, and it has been happening daily since October.  It is taking a toll on him and on all of us!  Please keep Cheyton, us, the administration and even the bullies in your prayers. 

~That Cheyton will feel safe and be happy for the weekend because he can sleep in, and not that it will be a couple days of not getting bullied...That's what he told Sam in a conversation last night :(
~For Ethan and David too, as they hear tidbits here and there, and I am sure they see him down.  Maybe pray that they can help encourage him   <3
~That We will know the next step to take, and not move based on emotions...
~That the administration will realize the mistakes that have been made, and take the initiative to make things right so that other kids will not have to go through this...Or at least will not have to endure it for as long as Cheyton has!
~And pray that the bullies have a change happen in their hearts.  I know that often there is something happening within them, their home or something, that makes them act the way they do.  I AM NOT BY ANY MEANS EXCUSING THEM...Simply knowing that I have to pray for them.

I am sorry that I cannot give more detail at this time, but I feel as though it's for the best.  But please be praying.   Thanks everyone!  I will update soon!

Decisions Decisions...

I saw Dr. Smith, my surgeon on Friday.  She was impressed with my improvement, especially with my gait.  She told me to keep up with the exercises, stretches and walking, so we can strengthen up the outer muscle of the hip as much as possible before the next surgery.

We discussed next surgery (left hip replacement), in particular, the timeline.  First she said October, but she said that due to my level of pain, that she'd give me a choice of April or October.  She asked me to please discuss it with Sam, and see what is best for all of us, and to let her know.  Sam and I discussed it and we decided that I will be going in, in April. 

It seems like so soon, but she said she is OK with either. I am looking forward to recovering in the somewhat warmer months.   Winter is harsh on my bones as it is, recovering from surgery and my aches and pains added to that, was not fun.  Another plus, will be that the boys will get to go through the surgery with the same teachers that have already experienced my other one with, and I think that will be very helpful for them.  To me earlier is better than later...I am ready to get the surgery done and over with and be on the road to recovery. 

If you can all be in prayer with me, as the process now begins with the insurance company and prepping emotionally for the surgery, that would be great.  I am not nearly as anxious this time around, since I know what to expect.  However, the boys do still get antsy and as time gets closer it only gets worse.  I try to comfort them, and I hope they will remember how well it went last time...But I don't know what goes on in their little heads and hearts.  So indeed my friends, prayers and encouragement for Sam, the boys and I, and of course the doctors too! 

Thanks  ~:o)~

Yesterdays Issues

Me: "I use to throw up."
Doc:  "Bulimia? How long ago?"
Me:  "Off and on since I was 11."
Doc:  "Now?"
Me:  "Oh, no, not now. It's been about 6 years."
Doc:  "A lot of your issues with weight and self confidence and definitely your dental issues all make a little more sense."
Me:  It's a constant battle that I wish I could say I never think about.
Doc:  It's like any other addiction. You were addicted to a behavior and eventually quit doing it. Did you ever get treatment for it. Ever talk to anyone about it?
Me: No. Maybe it's time.
Doc:  Maybe.

This was a conversation my doctor and I had just the other day. It may be shock to some of you, I know it was for my mom. I am not proud of my self image or the choices that I made.

My reason for writing is just to remind you all that things from your past do affect you NOW. There are so many healthy ways to take care of your body, to lose weight and to feel beautiful. Also, most importantly, look at yourself as God sees you. He has made you in His image. There's no such thing as human perfection, so there's no sense in striving for it, especially in unhealthy ways.

Bulimia is a real problem. A disease. It can happen to girls and boys, men and women. When I first started, I was a "tiny" 6th grader who had tinier friends. Now looking back, I know it's a lame excuse. As an older teen, I did it for weight maintainance. And as am adult, looking at my life, I have no excuse. I have a husband who lives me and truly loves and accepts me for who I am.  I guess I just find it so hard to look in the mirror and see beyond the physical. 

This is something I am going to work in with my therapist, and hopefully it won't be an issue ever again. I want to be an example to my nieces and especially to my sons, but I can't be that until I get everything right with me.

For those who may speculate, this had nothing to do with my weight loss this past year. It has been 6 years since I have purged and I am in a coherent place now...just need to get a little bit further. 

Enough for now. Thanks for reading.

Dentist...Criiiiinge no more!

Yesterday I faced my fear and went to the dentist for a root canal. After being afraid for the past week and making myself sick all morning, it really wasn't that bad. I had taken some medication the night before and day of to relax me, and I only needed 1 shot of Novocaine!  That is very impressive for me!  Especially because there was an infection in the tooth, which usually makes it difficult to numb it up.  The dentist was very nice and aware that I was nervous and when I was done, gave me a pat on the back. 

Unfortunately, he then said that I have to come back and get another root canal on a molar.  There is a crack in the filling and the decay is above that.  And...more infection.  So I go in on Thursday next week to get it done and I'm not as nervous this time.  At least not as much.  I have to get this done before my hip replacement, and the infection is almost all the way to the sinus cavity, so it NEEDS to be done! 

WISH ME LUCK!   

Thoughts of Moving

When you are in the military, especially right now, you always have to have a back-up plan.  Be prepared just in case this is your last term.  Sam will be putting in for PTS, Preform To Serve, in September, and that will determine if we will be staying in the Navy, or if we will be civilians in 2 years.  I told my mom last night that 2 years was a long time, but honestly, it's really not. 

Last night Sam and I were watching the show House Hunters.  They were in a city in the mid-west and the scenery, houses, amount of land for your money, was amazing.  So, we started looking at houses in Tennessee.  We had already been contemplating Oklahoma before, so it's not much further.  There were many houses that appealed to us that are well within our budget.  I am going to do some more research into the schools, and work, and of pray about it.  God has a plan for us!  Is this it?  I'm not sure, we will see!

Now of course, all of this is just when we get out.  It can be 2 years from now, it can be 6 years from now!  Like I said we just want to have something planned out. 

Plans Laying Out...

So I went to the doctor today and we talked about a lot of things.  Some people may think that talking about medical stuff on a blog, is too much, but, I think it's important.  We switched a couple meds, lowered doses on another and are talking about going back on Zoloft for a bit. 




The highlighted masses near the
jaw, are the extra parotid glands.

 ENT- (for the extra parotid glands)

For those of you who don't know, I have an extra set of parotid glands.  I see an ENT for "treatment," or as it usually stands.  Today I got a letter saying that the ENT specialist I was seeing in Seattle is retiring and to doctors are taking his place.  If Tricare will cover these docs, I may see if they will take a look at my scansand see how they are growing.  I would like to see if they can do or have ever done anything for something like this.   I feel like maybe it is an opportunity for a second opinion, and will be starting the phone calls soon.



My hip-after replacement



Orthopaedics- (for the hips and spine)

Had surgery #1, and am healing well.  Hip surgery 2 will be in February/March time frame.  After physical therapy is done for that, the doctor is going to address the comprssed discs in my lumbar spine.  They are starting to go all the way up to my neck and all the way down to my tailbone, so we need to get it under control. 

Rheumatology-(for fibromyalgia)

This is my Christian doctor.  I am going to talk to him about new options for treatment of fibromyalgia.  Not necessarily medication, but something.  ANYTHING!  He also counsels me a lot and prays with me, so our appointments are very imprtant, meaningful and effective to some extent!  

Mental Health-(for depression and chronic pain therapy)

I see both a social worker and a psychiatrist for therapy.  My social worker is for talk therapy and I am currently doing a pain management workbook with her.  She is really nice and has a way of getting things out of me!  Haha!  I guess that's the point!  My psychiatrist is for talking as well, but he deals more with prescribing and regulating medications and referring me out to other specialists if need be.  He,also, is great and has been an asset to my team of doctors.